(General)
I still don't know anything about China. Sorry. ONce I do I'll be sure to let you know.
Something that's been tough on my mission since... last spring or summer. Is my ability to trust in others. A lot of it had to do with the whole green card thing (people joining the church to get a green card)... But I guess it hurt most last summer when it was an investigator that I felt I really gave my all to help him come unto Christ turned out to ... initially be for a green card. It's something that's kind of left me very weary of trusting others. My patriarchal blessing has a line that says 'some who you've trusted may prove to be false'. My hope is that no matter what people's initial intentions are that I can be an instrument in bringing the atonement into their lives and that in doing that their hearts will change... I feel if they no I care and feel God's love thay will change. That's the aatonement.
Today Chen Long and Chace will be coming from Brooklyn to visit me. I told Elizabeth this too, but I feel before my mission I was a pretty prideful and self righteously exclusive person. But my mission has helped me so much to see the good in others. In everyone. And also to see the good I can when I recognize the good in myself. That's one reason I'm just a little worried to leave. I think I've had more friends here than I've had most of my life and I don't wanna leave them. I guess it's a good thing that modern technology makes keeping in touch easier. And there will be people for me to love and help nomatter where I am.
I can't wait to go home and see you all and Cami. I love you all!
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- Elder Benjamin James Eddy
(To Elizabeth)
I'm a horse, so maybe it was because this year's the year of the rabbit?
Yeah... I'm almost done. It's super super super weird. I feel so torn sometimes between here and there. But it's not a desire to go home as much of a desire to stay here. Looking back I tihnk I was a pretty exclusive person - pharasaic if you will. I honestly feel I've overcome a lot of personal flaws for other people and in doing so I've been able to make a lot of friends. I think I have a lot more friends here (not just missionaries but members and investigators) than I did back home... But on the other hand it'll be fun to try out my new self back home. Like the Hobbits going back at the end of the Lord of the Rings.
Good luck with everything going on. Maybe we can learn how to cook chinese food together when I get home. I need something to fill up my time. I'm scared of laziness!
We have an investigator, Jing. She used to be pretty scary to teach but she's changed so much. She's become such an optimistic and cheerful person. I love seeing people change. I gave a talk yesterday and read the 13th article of faith. One of the best things I've learned to do in my mission is look for the things that are 'virtuous, lovely, of good report or praiseworthy' in others and helping them bring that out. In doing so I've also found that it helps me sort through the good and bad within myself. Have a great day!
I love you,
Elder Benjamin James Eddy
- 狄俊明长老
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